worries

the 57th days, i love you
been wake up early today i dunnoe why...
then i start to worry this and that AGAIN ==
the deeper i love u, seems to be more worries i have...

worrying that how i pass this holiday cant seeing u...
worrying if i doesnt study form 6, can we still meet up?
cuz ur parent doesnt seems to agree u being with me ...
will our love just ended that way...?
i love u,
i loved the beginning of us,
but i dont wish for an ending...

4 more days and it'll be the end of 2nd month of us,
beginning of the 3rd month
i really thank you for giving me this 2 months of happiness
i feel happy being with u ^^

i thank god that he giv u to me
i thank u for giving me happiness
i thank that we're together, and
dear, i love u

nothing to be mentioned...

today has been a happy day...
cuz i can be with u whole afternoon ^^
i love the moments i'm with u together
i glad that we're together
i love when u're with me together...

i wanna be with u...
a very simple request...
i know u like to 撒娇 with me sometimes...
but, u just suddenly abandon me like that,
making me dont know nothing at all and i just got ignored?
u'll never know how terrible is my feeling that moment...
u never knew...
maybe u felt it's just a small thing to be mentioned,
but it hurts deep inside me...
i dont like to hurt others, neither do i want others to hurt me...

end it here...
gdnight world ^^
i love u ^^

things back to the usual way

saturday has been me worst day of my life...
i dont actually know why i cried...
cried cuz u dont wanna see me?
cried cuz u dont tell me things?
cried cuz i really loved u?
cried cuz i cant live without u? or
cried cuz i cant stop thinking negatively?
there seems to be many reasons i cried...
no wonder i cried that long ==

是我想太多，你总这样说...
想太多，不是我故意。。。
也许是我太依靠你了吧？

things have been the past...
none can make any change of it
the only thing we manage to do by now aint much...
to treasure the time we're together
to love each other even more
to bury the sweet memories we have deep in our heart
to create more happy and unforgetable moments together

if i've been given 3 wish
i'd wish that our love can last forever
i'd wish that ur parent will allow us to be together
i'd wish i can manage to provide u a life of our own...
i dont wish for a rich live for u and me becuz sometimes simple is better
we can enjoy life of our own with a normal life rite?

no matter what things happened
i want u to know that i'm always with u
u aint facing it alone cuz u got me
anything should tell me which is ur dear?
or else i'll feel that i'm useless ><
i love you > 3 <
^^

thinking negatively...

It's been a boring day today...
in the afternoon, i got nothing to do at all...
cause u went for band activities,
leaving me alone at house T_T
lolz...

it's then i start to thought of many things...
suddenly few questions came up to my mind:
1. why had u loved me, and by that time u know in my heart there's another 1

2. what makes me so special that u'd loved me than others... doesnt feel that i'm handsome or wadever...?

3. how did i fall in love with u? which now i keep thinking of u and nothing else ==

4. am i a good man for u? something makes me feel like i'm a normal human beings on the land while u're the angels in the sky...

sorry... i just...
cant control myself to thing negatively...
maybe cuz i love u too much, i'm worrying that u'll leave me...
i love u ♥
i dont care the rest if things, as long as u love me
^ ^