第 202 天。。。 最伤心的一天。。。

今天不知怎么的很 Emo。。。
也许是昨天我们俩之间的事吧。。。
一大清早就起来了，短信给你。。。
你似乎很忙的。。。又不理我了。。。
忍着心痛，真的是面壁思过。。。
想了很多事情。。。

想起很多我们一起经历过的事。。。
想起很多我们在一起开心的时候。。。
可是。。。怎么最近都变了。。。？
真的很对不起。。。
也许真的是我变了。。。

近来我们的距离似乎变得很远。。。
你的心事更是很久都没告诉我了。。。
我。。。心很痛。。。
终于不能忍的等你放学时去找你。。。
可又不想让你见到我。。。
不想让你见我哭。。。
不想让你看到我失落的样子。。。
一整段路程我都跟在后面。。。
看到你的朋友也是笔了手指要他们不说。。。
就当我自私吧。。。？

回到家。。。
便打电话给你。。。
也不知我怎么的。。。
说出了早上想的要跟你好好谈谈。。。
又被你误会我想跟你分。。。
哈哈。。。也许真的是我自找的吧。。。
心。。。破了个大洞。。。
血。。。不停的流。。。
哭过就好。。。是骗人的。。。
真正的伤。。。就只有自己知道。。。
爱有多深。。。没有人比我清楚。。。
我只能说。。。
林仁凌我不会跟你分手！
你还得陪我到老，别找借口甩开我 ><！

老婆。。。我知道有时你不告诉我一些事情，
是因为你不要我担心。。。
但你又知道吗？
你不告诉我。。。我更是乱想。。。
也许真的是我太多心吧。。。？

对不起老婆。。。
我爱你

7days more... 3rd month anniversary...

时间过得真快。。。
转眼间我们已经接近三个月了。。。
这三个月里，
曾一起笑过，
曾一起哭过，
更曾经离家出走过。。。
甜酸苦辣，应有尽有。。。
但我真的很珍惜跟你的每一段时间 ^^
我很傻，什么都不懂。。。
但我知道。。。有你在，什么都是美好的 ^^
♥ 我爱你林仁凌 ♥

昨天是我生日，
去了新开的 1st avenue 庆祝 ^^
早上呢跟你两人世界去看 harry potter
下午呢跟朋友一起去 redbox ^^
在此感谢振源，美如，jeremy，明峰，跟 yen shien 陪我度过 ^^
对不起，写英语的是我不会写你华语名的。。。哈哈
特别感谢明峰因为有事了还来
去时是三点那样 ^^ 服务真快 >< 据我所知两个只顾讲电话 ==
我们一个人准叫两杯水，
好笑又奇怪的是平常一直喝水的我。。。
要回了跟老婆两人只和了两杯水 ==
而且我们只拿蛋糕，忘了拿刀跟蜡烛 XD
一杯水是要回了才喝完，所以还剩一杯没喝哈哈。。。

出了 redbox， 跟老婆出去 8楼外面看风景，
想必晚上灯开了也会像当时的美，
可惜我们不能迟些会。。。
1st avenue 回之前的事会只有我们两个会知道 ^^
七点多你妈来了，我才拿着蛋糕回家 ==
回家之前呢跟振源和 ah siong 在警察局旁那吃 nasi kandar ^^
“聊”了一下才回家 ^^
回到家跟老婆讲电话一会儿了跟我爸爸出去一下
回来又继续讲。。。呵呵。。。
晚上跟你讲电话，或多或少成为了我每晚的习惯。。。

今天，我二舅公从新加坡回来 ^^
刚才陪他去 new world park 吃午餐
当时发生了场意外。。。
一为父亲让他女儿玩那 merry go round 的马
女儿就不知道是捣蛋还是不小心差点跌到。。。
父亲为了扶女儿，自己的手被夹在那马旁的 cactus ==
被拖着走两三圈==
附近的人就忙着吃东西没有看到。。。
第一个跑上帮忙却的是旁边忙着卖饭的==
我是第三个赶上==
眼看没办法让那东西停下，
我们五六个惟有把它拉着不要让它走 ==
几乎吃牛奶的力用尽了== （较夸张的形容）
同时把那机器弄坏了哈哈哈 XD
旁边的人却在看罢了 ><
也不知道他的手怎么夹到。。。
那 cactus 之间的封比他的手还小==
要拿手出来时还是我们把那那 cactus 拉开 ==
回家时手红了 ==
对不起老婆。。。只顾帮人，让了照顾我自己。。。

下午陪老婆玩 sdo, 写这东东 ^^
一天就这样过了。。。
时间过得真快 ==
我爱你老婆。。。
虽然我说过永远跟你在一起。。。
但我还是要珍惜我们在一起的日子 ^^
因为有你在的日子与时候，
是我今生最美好的时刻 ^^
♥ 林仁凌，我爱你 ♥

the 79th days i love you

havent writing blog since wednesday
so decided to wrote it today since i'm quite free
cuz u went to do ur experimental cake lol ==

it all begin from wednesday...
we first decided to go prangin & watch movie today
but then u say we've got more time together
giving that day to u be with ur frien at queensbay
and then my parents decided to go there too
so i followed as well ^^
first playing there with my family at cyc a while
then go chopper board for lunch
after that walked with u and ur friend before u go for movie
gave u my jacket before u went in
worrying u'll felt cold without me beside u
may be my reason i wore jacket that day... hehe...
then i followed my dad to see houses at bayan lepas
^^ the house is so big and nice ^^
wish u and me have our house too...
after that back to queens to see u and waited till u back
ur dad saw us together and wanna hit u
when u told me i was so worry
then end up u ran out from house...
went to see u at sungai dua, met u front of mcdonald
then walked in the rain to zoey house to borrow helmet
then brought u back to my house for a bath
the first time my motor speed meter doesnt reach 60 ==
rain + fetching u so not a chance i'll be speeding ><
really felt there's no distance between us
and i like it ♥ wish everyday would be like this...

thursday went to prangin with u
watched skyline and rise of mummy
was a nice show and u're with me
the 2nd time we sat on couple seat ^^
loved cathay couple seat
no divider between seat like gsc ^^
making us coulda get closer
really loved this 2 days...
memories in this 2 days would be kept deep in my heart
cuz brain easily forgets, heart doesnt ♥

friday, sat neh...
was staying at house doing nothing...
so lazy write le...
until today morning u suddenly sms me those things...
i knew u doesnt meant it but it still huts
but i forgive u anyway... cayse i loved u too much
i love u lysette
i think you should know that i wont mention that thing to u
u can choose not to trust me other things but
u should trust me this...
cause...
i love you ♥

the 74th days i love u

havent been writing blog for quite some days
cuz well my wife is sitting for exam
so she doesnt online much and so do i ^^
i remember the first day of her exam
i accompany jeremy go to school to find oh rosy
end up we're gunna help her do some "calculation"
sorry that i didn't find u that day cause...
told u before but still... sorry...

the 2nd days onwards i find u when ur recess everyday
it's a short 20min for ur recess and for me to see u
but it's better than i cant see u whole week ><
i'm still worrying how i pass this holiday...
that day i went to wait u after school at 6.05
then... ur mom saw me and called me
talked very much but i only heard a bit ==
her voice is such LOUD ==
i keed nod-ing my head keep ha ha ha... en en en...
but actually dunnoe what she's saying HAHAHAHA
yet an ambulance wanna passby there but traffic jam
the siren is louder than ur voice way too much
till i only hear the siren ==
felt kinda sorry to ur mom lol zzz

3rd day of ur exam onwards i'm scared of ur mom
decided to see u from far away
cuz i dont want her scolding u again
then when ur mom start to go back ur house,
i use the shortest way to ur house
since ur mom is using a longer way ==
then stop near ur house to see u once more
it's lucky that ur mom doesnt notice that for such many days
we seems far apart like this but i feel u're just beside me
i love u ♥

yesterday
i went school early in the morning
cuz i need to return books
but i brought phone to school to school to sms with u
unfortunately later go return book,
later go recess, later go hall...
cant sms with u...
then u reached school around 12.30
was so happy to see u and lucky teacher no care us also
recess go find u again but ah tan and transformer at there
so we didn't sit together
today fold u a different type of love
morning at school they teach me de ^^
gt a bit cacat hope u like it ^^
after school ne saw it rain quite heavily le...
but still go to school
cause 2 simple reason
the main reason is to see u
and to return ur friend's phone
wind blows quite big de then i got wet
was worrying u'll worry bout me when u see me but...
i really missed u too much...
half soaked wet when i reach school then i saw u
i was very happy then i saw u seems wanna cry aneh...
i knew u worried me... sorry...
when i back was totally soaked wet haha... then went to bath
was angry + sad when i know u go home aneh wet still no bath
mai blame urself k?

i love u lysette

the 67th days i love you

wa~
many days no write blog le hehe ==
lazy write :p

have a wonderful weekend last week
went out to prangin with my dearest wife at saturday
celebrated yi wen bday at little oasis ^^
the cake was so expensive ><
a small cake cost 92 LOL
i never ate it ^^
see tiok the cream tok dwan eat liao haha...
then go kai kai with my wife alone ^^
we went popular to see some books
bought some books and my wife bought a cd as well ^^
enjoying every moments i have with u ^^
then night went to science seminar >.>
before that go old town mam mam ^^ (ps i very tam jiak)
along the seminar at there eat snacks while listening
hiak hiak hiak ^^
after seminar go ma jia eat with wayne, yen shien and beng hong
then u called me ^^ my heart felt so warm with u alone ^^

sunday neh is quite a boring day
morning msn, sms and sdo with u ^^
found that my life is everything about u ><
but i loved it ^^ i love u very much ><
went find u at crystal height in the afternoon
hugged u tightly cause i really missed u ><
but unfortunately things doesn't goes by our way
ur mom was so "lucky" to passby and saw us hugging ==
at night,
feel so blessed that we ate together at the same restaurant
we just reached there at the same time
i feel that god treated me so well
tho we eating apart, but i could feel u're with me ^^

yesterday...
was out last day studying in the morning session together
early in the morning went to buy my water as usual
then saw u right when i wanna go back to class
u and ur sis are doing something i dont know what
but it's funny to see ur clumsy side haha...
when ur recess u gave me a heart
then i realised u'd may write something in it as usual
when i opened it, i cried... lucky that no one notice it
i forgived u earlier ago,
but i still wish u keep ur promise
and i trust u will
i love u,
and love is about forgiving rite?
at night, got nothing to do
was smsing with u then my phone went to "emergency call only"
in that 15min i just stare at my phone
then start thinking negatively again
then i called u... hehe...
only your voice can calm me down when i'm emo-ing
i dont know why... maybe i loved u too deep? ^^

i'll end here with the same phrase
i love you lysette

无题

今天天气真好。。。
与前几天比起来。。。
今天没有下雨，是个出去游玩的个日子。。。
可心。。。却是下着雨的。。。
淹没了我的眼睛。。。
埋没了我的心。。。

你告诉了我有人喜欢你。。。
我很高兴你对我的坦白。。。
你问我该怎么办。。。
就说了别离他就好。。。
也不多说了。。。
可你也继续的与他短信的。。。
才问该怎么办？

很多人都说男生的妒嫉心比女生来得多。。。
现在我相信了。。。
但这妒嫉心，始终还是出于对一个女生的爱意，
爱得越深，妒嫉心就越重。。。
其实你可曾为我想过？
曾试着从我的角度来看？
或许是我自己想太多。。。
因为我知道我们彼此夜深爱着对方

我爱你
我可以不在乎别人怎么讲，怎么想我
但我绝对不能没有你
更不会骗你。。。
你不会知道你在我心里地位有多重要
你更不会看见我哭
每次抱着你时我都很少说话。。。
不是因为什么。。。
只是我想就这样静静的，
享受有你的日子与时间
我有心事时都经常去找你。。。
因为有你在，我不会胡思乱想

刚才也许我的用词粗了些
实在很内疚。。。
但毕竟也说了，不可能收回了。。。
对不起。。。
我爱你

Promises

it's the end of our 2nd month,
begining of the 3rd month ^^
it's a start of something new
feel so blessed that im with u
i love you ^ 3 ^

things poped up so sudden...
but i'm happy that u tell me the truth
least i know u love me
and u dont wanna lie at me
this told me to love u even more
i'll take care of u,
that's my promise...

i wont simply make promise
cuz i know with my age
there are much things i cant do...
but i'll make this promise to u
cuz i do really loved u very much...
and i wanna spend the rest of my life with u

sometimes i dont know what you're thinking
as a girl, i guess i know what you should do...
i only mind you really love me
and i'll love you more
although i wont angry about it
but cant be deny that i still gt a lil jealous...
i still wish you'll think it from my way of view...
i have my trust on u

it's the 63th day we've been together
nothing can replace all the things we've been through
i love you, and only you
lysette lim jen lyne ><
you wont be exist in my mind
cuz i treasure you in my heart ^^
mind easily forget things
heart doesnt
i love you very much